Another gap in this blog, due largely to another journey—a research and conference trip to Amsterdam and Florence. I got bronchitis in Amsterdam, and thus was rather out of sorts for the entire time. It was my first trip to Florence, and I managed on the last evening to see much of the historic center of the city. But mostly I coughed a lot and saw the insides of different academic center meeting rooms. Such is the scholar’s life in the twenty-first century.
Last week I traveled to Philadelphia where I am canonically resident (in the Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania) to participate in the election of a new bishop diocesan. I had never been part of an episcopal election, so I wanted to have that experience while I could. Also, I had been personally invited by several people to take part. Although I moved to Wisconsin in 2013, I remain connected to the diocese where I first heard my call to holy orders, and where I served as deacon and then as priest for almost two decades. It was a bit of a shock to my system—I suppose culture-shock is a good term for what I experienced—to enter the Cathedral Church of the Savior in West Philadelphia for the opening Mass. The music, of course, was almost overwhelming in the way it tugged at my heartstrings. As I looked around I saw so many familiar friends, as it happened all of us who went to seminary together and were ordained deacon together in that very cathedral were present, as were so many colleagues from so many years in the clergy of the diocese. So much life lived together, so many holy moments shared—it was a very powerful presence into which I entered and of which I became a part in a heartbeat. The phrase that flew into my consciousness was how good it was to be back in the bosom of the church.
One way in which clergy are fortunate is to have these experiences of the whole church, or at least of larger parts of it than individual congregations. In seminary our experience of this was constant, the better I suppose to orient us to leadership in our individual congregations. That said, the convention was an amazing experience. There were five candidates, after the opening Mass, the voting began. There were four ballots, each taking about two hours in the end. The ballot would be announced, then we all stood to sing and pray, and then there were ten minutes of silence, following which we were instructed to mark our ballots and hand them in. And then we waited while they were counted (and we gathered, while the candidates were contacted with the numbers before we were). After the second ballot two candidates withdrew. And on the fourth ballot finally there was an election in both houses (clergy and laity vote simultaneously and are counted separately; the successful candidate must be elected by majorities in both houses). (Lest I’ve aroused your curiosity, the facts are available on the diocesan website here: http://www.diopa.org/.)
I was very tired afterward but I was very glad I had taken part in that particular council of the church.
In preparation for the trip I had tried hunting down information about places to eat and was chagrined to discover my favorite haunt had closed. It was a gay restaurant from the old school, with a bar of course. Back in the mid-1980s when we first moved there it was still the sort of place where everything on the menu came with a green vegetable so as to reinforce the community’s nutritional standard. During the first ballot at the convention I got to chatting with parishioners from the church where I last had worked, and from this conversation learned a waiter I’d known there had passed away. Over the past week I’ve mentioned several times to my husband how surprised I was at how upsetting I found that news. We’d been acquainted for almost three decades, and I suppose almost unwittingly I had developed a sort of dependence on his presence. So it was a bit of a shock to learn of his passing followed by a good bit of grieving as well. On reflection I see that his work in the place was as much ministry as job, for decades he loved his customers and tended to them like a flock.
The week ended with my birthday. Another conundrum I suppose, because each year older now is sort of a numerical shock even though I don’t particularly feel old.
Well that’s my news. Today is Palm Sunday, and it is with the remembrance of the Passion that we enter Holy Week. We who are Christians will walk this week together into the deep darkness and then step once more into the light. It is not just a memorial of the events of Christ’s death and resurrection, of course. It is the way of all of life, all of human experience, and in this we learn to hold together in both the darkness and the light. God’s glory is not just in the music and incense but also in the grief, which expresses love experienced together in community.
And what an intersection of community. A restaurant that for decades had nurtured and tended to the gayborhood had been a haven and a loving presence. And a diocese of the church now fully open to the lgbt community.
En route to the diocesan convention I tried to discover whether there were any particular points of view about the candidates from the lgbt community and there were not. At first I was surprised about that, but the more I thought about it the more it made sense. After all, the diocese’s formal decisions about full inclusion of lgbt people date back to the 1970s. I was not the first gay priest in the diocese, although I was among the first partnered gay ordinands at a time when marriage equality was brewing as a goal for a distant future. How interesting that that future now is our experience with marriage equality the reality in society and in the church. As I strolled around the convention (there was lots of time for strolling during those long ballot counts) I noticed how many lgbt people were present. Everyone at this event was in a leadership role, so that speaks volumes for not just the presence of the lgbt community in the diocese but also for their sense of belonging and their commitment to the church that has made a commitment to them. At one point I ran into a priest who had been a comrade of sorts in my ministry of evangelism in the lgbt community and we discussed how we had succeeded in not just creating environments that were open to lgbt people but also in finding ways to take the gospel into the community. So there is a lot of good news about lgbt Christians in the Episcopal Diocese of Pennsylvania, and in the Episcopal Church in general.
I’ll close with a bit of today’s scripture, from which I paraphrase today’s blogpost title. From Psalm 31:14-15a “But as for me, I have trusted in you, O Lord. I have said, “You are my God. My times are in your hand.”
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*Palm Sunday (Isaiah 50:4-9a; Psalm 31:9-16; Philippians 2:5-11; Luke 22:14-23:5-6)